PEEPEE

Finally one good thing about PEEPEE that I mention on my blog?
HAHAHHAHAA.
I can say, I'm more than 75% completed. Or not?
But I completed quite a lot today! Cossssss, apart from buying baking ingredients in the late afternoon, I was sitting on the sofa watching tv the moment I wake up. How pok?
Oh well, I feel quite satisfied now. Hoping my report can reach 2,000 words, which is pretty near there already. FULL-OF-SMILES!

Howeverrrrrrrr, I can totally imagine how it'll be like doing the last minute editing for my report becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehehe.

1. My english is damn broken. B4 during O'levels was total lucky shiaaaat.
2. My points are everywhere. At least I think so?
3. I keep thinking I missed out some points, and I forgot where to find them.
4. I haven't even come out with content page. I'm like using the do-backwards way.
5. I think my points are pretty weak. Who cares? Advisor cares.
6. I keep thinking my report will never be up to standard.

Does it sound bad? Not that bad actually. It's just about the edit part. Well, who can't pass through this kind of obstacles in life? I thought I'll totally screw up English during O'levels, but the grade gave me a sense of satisfaction with myself in the end.

HA HA HA. Just another parcel that stop by, it'll part me in likeeeeeeee, two three months? YESSSSSA!

On a happier note, hehehhehe. Actually the above all not that unhappy. Ferran don't laugh at me leh. HAHHAHAHHA! Well, I found back my ipod cable! It was that night, when I took it oout from my room, then walked to my xian's room, dropped it near the rubbish bin unknowingly, & thought I'd placed it on the living room table. How come I didn't notice I lost it immediately? Totally no idea. I realised it only the next night. Searched high high low low for it, instinct tells me that I dropped it in xian's room, but I just couldn't find it. THENNNNNNNNN, just now. NYEHEHEHHEHEH. I finally saw it in xian's room! I swear idk the reason why, but i was super elated. HAHAHHAHH!

Yeah I'm damn bored that I typer out a totaly paragraph about it. Pardon me. Hahahaha. It's been a pretty long time since I last posted a normal post. The previous ones macam emo onlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

A few days ago I had this lunch with xian, brother, and three cannot-be-named people. Muahahahaha. I still can't believe we did that. Quite funny know. But it turned out pretty well in the end. Three siblings meeting three nice people. Maybe one of them is exceptional. HAHAHHAHAHHAH! Meanasses are bound to exist in this world!

&&&, I kenna pangseh-ed teh whole day sial!

unhappy.

Who actually really understands where I'm actually coming from?

It's the C-word night again.

Can't smile without you. If only you knew.

quarreling.

Now I know what people would do when something meant so much to them.
It's not easy to be forgiven after such wrong things that I had done.
And regretting the things that I did is always the last thing I want it to happen in my life.
I should stop expecting things now.

To the annoying you,

Yes you know I'm refering to you.

I am really sorry for ruining you mood.

You're the last person that I ever want to hurt.

But I hope, we'll both still be as strong as before.

You'll need time & i'll give you all the time you need.

Now, I feel myself treasuring your smile and laughter more than usual.

Anything for you. (L)

Don't bother guessing who this is for. It won't do you any good either.

Clubbing at Rebel.

Rebel-lious

Recalling whatever I can still recall.

& I thank god I reached home safely last night.

HAAHAHHA.

I wonder how some people can do this so often?

Gosh the feeling is terrible.

I'm fine, it's just, I had a dramatic night. & I'm kinda having phobia/trauma or whatever you call it. hahhahahahhaa.

Happy 21st Birthday ChenYan!

Because y'all know what I nag about most nowadays on my posts, so I shall shut my mouth today. Nyehehehe. It's not nice to see me keep nagging about the same thing too. Want something different? Nah, I give you.

SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

HUAHUAHUA! Now that's interesting. & That's totally my kind of joke. You want to draw money? Give me pen & paper. Easy. NYEHEHHEHEH.


Sis baked all day long today. Then I ate chocolate thingy all day long. People celebrate HariRaya, I celebrate my sister's failed attempts of baking chocolate cakes. I helped in making the nutella something something, and that was the only edible one! Muahahahha! & she baked cookies at the end of the day, again.

Sometimes, can't help but to admit that dad can be really sweet at times. When I nag too much about certain stuffs that I want, he'll get it for me in the end. Oh yeah, I'm a happy kid. I cleared like half of my D drive fiinally. But, good things always come to an end. I didn't realise my word document has problem. Having difficulty doing report now, but it's still do-able, so I'm not nagging much about it.

Posting on the 20th September, not fogetting my dear friend who's so far idk-how-many-kilometres away from me right now. & it's her freedom year!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CHENYAN!

I can see you really flying like a swallow now. HAHHHAHA!Eh you must be at somewhere doing HEHEHEH la, not replying my sms know!

Awwwww, whenever I think of you, I look at our graduation pics back then in cchy. Well I only have that album la, but it's better than nothing at all. And thanks to that album, I owe Chenyan so many bowls of ice kachang! HAHA! Yeah she's coming back in Decemeber to eat those bowls of ice kachang.

Eh, I miss our after-school-days eating laksa at some coffee shop. I miss going to Lipmin's place after school to study when O'levels were nearing, & gg to her place and slack downstairs. HEH HEH. We vandalised. *bouncing eyebrows* Would want to go back someday to see if what we wrote were still there. & after Farid uploaded the videos onto facebook, I recall the times we hop to each other's classes after periods, after school, during recess, anytime. Come to think of it, what happened that made us want to hangout with each other so much? During recess, the number one girls clique who are always the last to gather back at the indoor court. Ala! Too many to recall.

Am smiling to myself now. Our innocent teenage days. With Edmund enlisted into NS now, with Chenyan having overseas studies in Australia, I think two is more than enough to prove time is still ticking and not going to stop. Hard to admit that it's time to grow up when we recall our old school days, regrets felt defnitely, but it goes to show I lived it well those past years because it made me want to go back and repeat what I had lived all over again.

Graduation was perfect, except for the song we sang. HAHAHAHAHAHA! O'levels finally over, then wait to get results. & then we're left with really going on our separate ways. I believe that separating classes was already a tough fact to accept, how did we go about living till today then?

Hahahaha. Seen Norlyn's post, and I totally agree. Although we don't talk much now and don't know about each other littlest details in life, you guys are still in my life. My 2005 was the best year in secondary school life, well spent with the people I grew up with all these years. I miss the days of wearing uniforms, do you?

SEC FOURS ON THE DANCE FLOOR! Assembly in hall. It's difficult to forget about those times because we always made noises. We love it.

& I'm sorry for being such a biatch during those days. With my hot temper, my stubbon and mean character, which was totally hard to get along with. Not forgeting the revengeful times. Hahaha, kids. & I'm glad I still managed to have wonderful friends like you people. I miss mugging for O'level days. Writing a report is making me :/. Peepee, why pee so much? -.-

So, idk why I'm still awake now. Hahahaa.

But I just found the reason. :)

Friendly.

I call her, Friendliest.

HAHAHAHAA.
Went NTUC with sis a while ago.
While queueing to pay at the cashier, i saw this girl sitting under the hanging clothes. She saw me looking at her, so i smiled at her. Who knows, she smiled widely back at me, then waved to me.
Awwwww, melt my heart. Really.
& after that, she was jumping around her mum and me, shouting jiejie!jiejie! Oh, her mum was queueing in front of us.

Rare to see kids like these. Some would just smile back, and they shy to wave.
But look at this super friendly little girl. Sweet ttm.

:)

BAH.

Because I can't believe what I just did.
Because I can't believe what just happened.
Because I can't believe I am actually what I expect myself not to be.
Because I can't believe the reason.
Because I can't believe that I can't believe.
Because I swear you wouldn't believe that was actually me just now.

It was more than two. Three or Four maybe? All at one go. How to stuff it when it's so many at one go? Even a soft toy has a limit for the amount of cotton that can be stuffed into it.
You can put the blame on me.
Can see, I'm not feeling good tonight.
No I Gotta Feeling song.
It started all with me sitting on sofa since 6.30pm. Watching tv, eat dinner, sms, trying to take nap. All on the sofa.
Slap me please. I seriously don't know what I'm thinking. forfuck



Anyway choo, I can be your partner for life in being a PI too. HBT? Want to hire me as assistant though I'm still trying to improve on guessing of short forms.

guilty conscience.

Now I feel guilty, and I will tell no one why.

LAPTOP.

To blame it on myself again?

I really got no comments at all this time.

Can cry whole night about it but still won't solve the problem.

Shit shit shit shit.

I hate the holidays. Really. Gosh neither do I want school to start.

Nehmind. I want to quit school.

Coach Feiruz

I must learn how to talk to my team mates; turn, man on, time/hold.

welcome to malibu, biatch.

Say no to vulgarities.
Somehow I realised that I don't have a privacy of my own, and I didn't need that in the past.
But now that I need it, people try to intrude into it.
F word to those whom themselves clearly know what they did to me.

It's the fire burning feeling again.
Stop blogger. Switch channel.
Somewhere else where stalkers wouldn't exist.
But I'm hesistating.

Why am I still letting such people affecting the way I behave?
Who wouldn't tell themselves to live for themselves and not for others.
Yeah I did. You people intruded, because the first and last fact is that you're not being very welcomed.

Time to be harsh. Where anything can be sacrificed.
Maybe I'm posting this today and being the same person again tomorrow, but at least I realised and I'm trying.

It's not just about this.
I'm having a foul mood now.
I have a forgetful mind, I even forgot about the true colours of some people.
But that actually meant, they were out of my ife for a period of time.
& that was very much needed.



Well, secretly laughing evil-ly.

try try try by jason mraz

i know i gave you everything you like
because you still give me butterflies

if we just try try try
just to be ni-ni-nice
then the world would be a better place for you and I
if we just live our lives
putting our differences aside
oh that would be so beautiful to me

well it wouldn't cost a penny but could save so many lonely lives
from teary eyes
if we just try try try
to open up a can of understanding open up your heart



TRY TRY TRY & DO MY PP LA SEH!

090909

EH MUST BLOG MY BLOG MUST BLOG.

090909!

I confirm cmi to pakat with the time to come blog at 09:09:09am. hahah!

&&&& I GOT MAJOR CRAVINGS FOR FOOD.
FOOD. YES FOOD.
ANY FOOD.
GOSHHHH.
I think it's cos I've been going on hunger strike recently.
I'll usually feel damn full after eating McNugget student meal, upsize somemore.
But today, the impossibleisnothing happened. After dinner, I still want to go pasar malam buy food it.
Ala, I got cravings for food, but idk which to eat.
I see Yau's tweet on twitter I jealous.
Sunday supposed to go makan to celebrate mum's birthday.
In the end, it doesn't even matterrrrr~
No la in the end sister packed food from downstairs instead.

Today's training. HOLY. I have never felt so tired during & after training, since idk when. Probably cos the last few trainings were light ones due to having matches the next day, so my physical take for granted already ah. AHHH I KEEP COMPLAINING. THEN AFTER TRAINING I HAVE TO CARRY SUCH HEAVY BAG HOME. NOW I FEEL MY SHOULDER ACHINGGGGGGGGGG. SAD LIFE. LIFE IS SHORT.

Oh anyway, my com is back to normal again!
Wah I hope it won't suddenly have problem again after few days. I will really -.- and throw it on the floor.
Just kidding. But at times it can really be very annoying. One after another. Tsk.



&Ilismwwssteoaatltiwwitlf.

gosh. shame.

I already feel bad enough & some people just have to keep saying it to me.

Adding major salt to the major wound.

Seeing me so down makes your life better huh? Find another person la.

Eh stop it sial seriously.

HORRIBLE COMPUTER.

If only I had pamper my laptop, maybe it wouldn't give me so many problems right.

One problem after another.

Cannot all come together and get it all fixed together ah?

Look look look look at this. My computer screen does not have a desktop. All I have is only this computer folder, for me to open IE, messenger and whatever I want to open. My computer does not even have a task manager.

one black screen and the minimized programmes - my desktop. -.-

But lucky I still can on and off it normally. Just that it seems like handicap. I'm still sad. :/ Power la, & I lazy to go back to school for IT helpdesk. Wait, is IT helpdesk open during the holidays? Wah, if only I have a computer genius at home. :S

mummy's birthday.

3rd September,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAMAMAAMAMAMAMA!

bahhhhh. bad day.

Out of town. Out of city. Out of country. Out of sight. Out of comminucation ways.
Boring. More like I'm lonely.
What happened earlier to me was rather stupid. Out of stubborness. Ended up whining to myself how sad life is. LIFE IS SHORT.

Tired yet don't want to hit the bed.
Until now I still haven't see myself changing. I need to, and I have to.

Anyway, it's been more than two months. & it's the best I ever had. A lifetime down to go.

You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down.